End of year roasting!!!!!!

Man, i am really pissed today. I had my year end review and I think I got my ass lit on fire. There were too many areas to improve and less of what i was good at. God bless my boss though. I mean he could have really laid it into me. I tihnk he pretty much did. U know... I have not put my all into my work. I dunno why. I guess I am lazy I guess.

Man, what will it take for me to give a damn?? I tihnk I feel entittled to what I am getting right now. I feel I deserve more so I am rebelling by working as little as possible. Isn't that wierd?? Eve if I work hard and get to a salary level that I fell that I deserve. i would not be as happy. Man, I am a confused fellow. I should put up or get off. I mean, if I am beign undervalued then I should either work on getting to a better job.

Cuz I am wasting time if i am doing liek Ia m doing right now. I think If I put my all in the job.. I will be out of there in NO time. I know where I want to go. Dang, why does it take so much to get motivated??

Life without TV

ok, it has been 3 months since tv was cancelled in our lives here. I think it has been a good decision for us to do that. I think when my wife gets more money , we will not add cable back. I like having to talk to her and there is always the computer. albeit a geeky form of communication but still communication nonetheless.

ever tried cyber sex with ur wife sitting across from u on her computer?? I haven't done that before. I think I will do it tonight.. **evil grin**

Marriage is soo fragile..

sometimes I hear people talk about divorce and I shudder. I mean, this is crazy how 2 people who swore to be together til death, end it in 3 yrs. Why? How ? what happened. that is the stuff I wanna know about.

I wanna take someone who is divorced and figure out why it happened. what did she do? What did he do? Cuz I am scared of killing this thing I have hear with wifey. I mean, could I be starving her right now without knowing it?

I dunno. Divorce is soo prevalent yet none will tell me if I am headed in the right direction. I don't want to be a statistic.